I never win...

That's a huge disappointment. I enter contests a lot. I work as hard as I can in hopes that I'll be one of the many who entered who get something out of it. Recently Ergo was doing a giveaway on their facebook page. For the month of August they were giving away an Ergo a day. I had high hopes for this contest. I needed a carrier now that Alice is living with us. Well August has gone by and I don't have an Ergo. There are thirty people with a free Ergo, but I am not one of them.

That's disappointing. Ergos are expensive and I can't afford one. I needed one. I was betting on my luck. I mean certainly I needed an Ergo more than all those other women who entered. But the odds were not in my favor. It's so disheartening to lose.

I've come to realize though, I am not a loser. There are many things that I've won in life. I didn't need to enter a contest to win them either. I have a beautiful daughter that I can afford to meet her needs. I have a space to live where I can be comfortable. I have clothing that fits and is clean. Somewhere in life, I won the living lottery and it shows in the smiles on Alice and Emily's face, in my husband's warm hugs, in my own self satisfaction that after a long and tiring day I've made it.

Guess what? I got my carrier. It's not an Ergo. It's a Boba and in the end, it worked out better because apparently Boba's are more comfortable for larger toddlers. Maybe it wasn't given to me by the people at Ergo but it was bought for me (used) by my husband who knows I work hard and appreciates that more than anyone at Ergo can ever do.

It's okay that I get disappointed in never winning. I don't need to win. Actually sometimes I need to lose because if I won all the time, I would never be able to appreciate what I have and the hard work that gets me what I want.